Let's see today it snowed and was freezing in Charlotte. I got up extra early so I could make it into work on time. Car trouble as always made that impossible. I tried to put my car in reverse but something is wrong with the gear shift. I had to walk in the snow to get a ride to work. I arrived at work and I thought that when there was snow we could wear jeans. I looked around and I was the only one that had this thought. Oh well another blunder but hey I got to wear jeans to work. At first I hid at my desk and hoped no one would notice but I was wrong. Everyone commented on the fact that I wore jeans but then I heard that the President had on jeans today also! So I guess smart people think alike and all the others were suffering in there business attire and I got to leave my desk and prance around with everyone enveying the me. Ha Ha.. I was not about to walk the block in the snow in business attire. What will they do fire me over this.
I got back on Sunday from Aspen and decided to really take this diet thing seriously. After a cinnamin biscuit which I love from Bojangle's and a coke yesterday, I said goodbye to that was the last of those for a long time. I will keep you updated. I weighed myself and did the wii fit. I created a new person so it would not say, you have changed weight since the last time. I just don't need to hear what I already know. So far I have been good and have not had a coke since, which caused me withdrawal and a headache today, but the good news is that I lost 5 lbs since yesterday. How can that be? My scale must be wrong but I guess it is the water weight and the lack of my weight gaining medicine which caused the good news.
My stomach has gone down but I still have a gut which is not attractive. I am excited about this and let's hope I stay motivated. So ask me sometimes about the weight so I can have some support.
Random thought, why does CSI and those other shows always have flashlights. No matter if it is daylight and they are investigating they always use flashlights in houses. Turn the lights on. It never fails. So next time you watch CSI and you see the flashlights, think of me.
The dieting has made me a little cranky which of course caused me to be irritated with my boyfriend. He is coming back from Aspen tomorrow and we usually see each other on the weekends so I figured we would this weekend. He has been away for 2 1/2 weeks and just wants to be alone. He has spent a lot of time with his niece's and sister which is a definate change from his lifestyle. This hurt my feelings a little bit and even though I understand, I do not like hearing that he wants to be alone. Are we ever going to move forward because he is so independent and has his own lifestyle which sometimes I think is so set in stone that he would not want to change it. It makes me wonder if 2 years down the road we will still be doing the same thing. I live in a different city and even though it is just over an hour away, we don't see each other that much. How can we ever take that next step when this is okay with him? Being with him for several days in Aspen was a change but what would it be like if we were together all the time? Would we get sick of each other or would it bring us closer? Maybe I will never know.
Am I just with him because we are not moving forward? Remember this is the guy I blogged about not being "relationship material" who I accidently sent him a post that linked to my blog and he read. Another Anne blunder but I guess it did not phase him. He used to talk about the future but now we have hit a relationship standstill. I guess only time will tell.
I used to talk about moving to Charleston but how can I do anything when I don't know where this relationship is heading? That may be a cop-out because I am too content where I am and don't want to take that drastic step but I feel like time is slipping by. Life is so short and there are so many things I could do right now. I envy the people who travel and can pick up and move anywhere, meet new people and have many adventures. There is so much out there that I could be experiencing. Just going to Aspen and seeing a different way of life. I am not talking about the glitzy part but the people that live out there because the love to ski, snowboard or whatever. They have a passion for life and will do anything to be able to do what they want.
Sometimes I think that all of these materialistic things I want to buy is to replace the passion that I lack. What happened to the young girl who wanted to move to Costa Rica and have dreadlock babies. I dated a surfer in high school so that is where that idea came from. He was into Bob Marley and still is I heard. I saw a picture of him and he has the long dreadlocks and still is surfing.
So what is my passion? What is my signature? I thought about this today. So I ask you this, what is your passion? What is something that you would love to do or dreamed about as a child? Did you follow your dreams? Is there something you look back on and wish you did? What is the one regret that you have? What is the one choice that you are glad you made?
2 comments:
Quite the post. I can offer no relationship advice other than this: it seems your beaux is being honest with you about wanting time apart, etc. Realize that people rarely change, and, when they do, often it is not the change we would have hoped for.
You asked some pretty serious questions to close your post, so I must now give them serious thought before replying.
Great post.. I wish I had gone to college.. or at least, finished. I am so eager to learn something.. anything. I feel like I have wasted brain cells!!
hope things work out with your man!
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